Day 52

When we lose someone, when we lose love, when we lose faith in ourselves we often think back and wish it could have been different or it could have been better. We think of what we wanted to say that was never said, or all the lovely day dreams that never became a memory. We feel hurt, pain, regret and sadness when the truth looks us in the eye and we know that time only keeps moving forward and will never turn back. We know its too late to change what was done or what was said, and sometimes we lose ourselves while fighting a battle that can't be won. We lose sight. We lose mind. We lose reality. We lose.

I remember that feeling all the time. It's a reminder. It's a wake up call to stop looking over my shoulder and keep walking, breathing. Every night I close my eyes and imagine not what I could have done different yesterday but what I am going to do better tomorrow. I have been stupid. I have taken things for granted. I have I've made my mistakes and I am going to make more. It's a part of life that I have accepted, but I will never accept excuses for anything that holds me back in life.

Tomorrow could be the worst day of my life, or it could be the best day of my life. I think that no matter what happens I am going to try harder to make sure it's the best day everyday.

Whew. Enough with the heavy. Here are some baby egg rolls.