Monday, February 25, 2013
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Day 52
When we lose someone, when we lose love, when we lose faith in ourselves we often think back and wish it could have been different or it could have been better. We think of what we wanted to say that was never said, or all the lovely day dreams that never became a memory. We feel hurt, pain, regret and sadness when the truth looks us in the eye and we know that time only keeps moving forward and will never turn back. We know its too late to change what was done or what was said, and sometimes we lose ourselves while fighting a battle that can't be won. We lose sight. We lose mind. We lose reality. We lose.
I remember that feeling all the time. It's a reminder. It's a wake up call to stop looking over my shoulder and keep walking, breathing. Every night I close my eyes and imagine not what I could have done different yesterday but what I am going to do better tomorrow. I have been stupid. I have taken things for granted. I have I've made my mistakes and I am going to make more. It's a part of life that I have accepted, but I will never accept excuses for anything that holds me back in life.
Tomorrow could be the worst day of my life, or it could be the best day of my life. I think that no matter what happens I am going to try harder to make sure it's the best day everyday.
Whew. Enough with the heavy. Here are some baby egg rolls.
I remember that feeling all the time. It's a reminder. It's a wake up call to stop looking over my shoulder and keep walking, breathing. Every night I close my eyes and imagine not what I could have done different yesterday but what I am going to do better tomorrow. I have been stupid. I have taken things for granted. I have I've made my mistakes and I am going to make more. It's a part of life that I have accepted, but I will never accept excuses for anything that holds me back in life.
Tomorrow could be the worst day of my life, or it could be the best day of my life. I think that no matter what happens I am going to try harder to make sure it's the best day everyday.
Whew. Enough with the heavy. Here are some baby egg rolls.
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Day 51
Doing random acts of kindness for others always put me in a good mood. Today I bought lunch for the office just because.
More big news to come soon... Hopefully.
More big news to come soon... Hopefully.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Day 50
I close my eyes and listen. Like, really listen. It's so quiet and still around me right now that I can hear myself listening and I love it.
My photo is actually from Sunday morning. Apparently I left a shell of myself on the floor after I came home in the wee hours of the night.
My photo is actually from Sunday morning. Apparently I left a shell of myself on the floor after I came home in the wee hours of the night.
Monday, February 18, 2013
Day 45
26 years old today!
One of my favorite mottos to live by is this: You are only as old as you feel. If I wake up and I feel tired then that is all I need to know. Maybe that day is a 70 year old woman day, just guessing. If the next day I am in the mood to go to the amusement park, waste money on tickets for dumb prizes and eat ice cream until my face feels numb, thats perfectly fine. I am going to make the best out of feeling like an 8 year old all over again. Every day is a new adventure and that's all we can really be sure of. Sometimes the adventure is exciting, occasionally it's a lazy day on the couch and some days it can break you into pieces. As long as I feel the way I should be feeling in that precise moment - that is all that matters. Numbers are numbers.
Honestly, I really don't know what a 26 year old feels like because I am just beginning to understand it. Everyone's perception of a certain age is going to be a little different no matter how you look at it.
Today I feel like...me. The true me. This is as me as it gets - just doing my thing and eating a giant slice of chocolate cake while I continue to live on.
One of my favorite mottos to live by is this: You are only as old as you feel. If I wake up and I feel tired then that is all I need to know. Maybe that day is a 70 year old woman day, just guessing. If the next day I am in the mood to go to the amusement park, waste money on tickets for dumb prizes and eat ice cream until my face feels numb, thats perfectly fine. I am going to make the best out of feeling like an 8 year old all over again. Every day is a new adventure and that's all we can really be sure of. Sometimes the adventure is exciting, occasionally it's a lazy day on the couch and some days it can break you into pieces. As long as I feel the way I should be feeling in that precise moment - that is all that matters. Numbers are numbers.
Honestly, I really don't know what a 26 year old feels like because I am just beginning to understand it. Everyone's perception of a certain age is going to be a little different no matter how you look at it.
Today I feel like...me. The true me. This is as me as it gets - just doing my thing and eating a giant slice of chocolate cake while I continue to live on.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
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